I'VE GOT RESERVATIONS ABOUT SO MANY THINGS

is it spring yet?

2008-03-05T23:42:35Z

i bought a new dress that i really love and cannot afford
just LOOK at how happy i am about it:

PURE JOY.

1 week till there's a lil' Huckleberry Hound hopping through my house...

P.S. date me?

i love you Lukey Loo i love you i love you

2008-02-20T22:26:28Z

my baby died today
he was only 5

he would lie with me on my white bed and blend into the comforter
he would smile when i came home every time, even when i'd been away for months
he would sleep on the red chair and cross his legs
and cover all my of my clothing in little white hairs
he would sit on my feet under the desk when i went on the computer
and whenever i cried, he would come sit with me,
and i would pat his soft little ears and he'd fall asleep with his head on my lap

i loved him more than anything, ever
i don't even know what i'm going to do
i love him completely and my home is not the same

then and now

2008-01-18T16:03:55Z

fawn_baby @ 2007-12-10T01:14:00

2007-12-10T06:15:52Z

the gerbils are so loud
they are like eating their wheel instead of running on it.
YUM!

i'l have a blue, blue-blue-blue christmas...

2007-12-05T19:04:36Z

another christmas alone...
is this a record? has to be.
:(

i am obsessed with photobooth

2007-10-28T17:10:35Z

...and school still sucks

the end.

i hate BU

2007-10-09T19:15:49Z

so as you probably know from all my whining/complaining, i thought i was going to London in the spring, and now I am not. BU's advisers have been fucking me over since i transferred here by telling me that as long as i kept a 3.0 or higher, i'd be all set to go. i learned 3 weeks before the application deadline that i can not go because I'm currently enrolled in a class that i needed to have completed by the deadline.

after much crying/discussion/depression, i decided to go to London in the summer. This means that next semester I am going to be basically alone, since my closest friends at school are all going to London in the spring. Like i should.

My parents agreed to let me move off campus next semester so that i can live like a normal person without being afraid of the babysitter (RA) down the hall. i can have my gerbils without having to throw a blanket over the cage every time there's a knock on the door. i can have my own room and maybe even a bed that is not smaller than a twin-size. so i was all excited about that until...

i just called the office of housing to find out the process of moving off-campus. i explained that i thought i was going to be in London, and in-turn off-campus anyway (in another country). the girl explained to me that is basically IMPOSSIBLE for me to move off campus. i have to fill out a petition to move off campus, and apparently the office of housing has not let anyone off campus yet. i.e. there is NO HOPE.

i cannot tell you how much i hate my school right now. i kind of regret even transferring here. BU does not give a shit about their students in any area that is not directly related to academia. i wish i could leave. i dont know what to do.

oh and the fact that my roommate and i are being eaten alive by microscopic bugs in our apartment. i am so unhappy :\

meet my new boyfriend

2007-10-09T04:45:05Z

His name is Jim Sturgess.

We are sooo in love..

Go see Across the Universe, and you will understand... yummm

i need a British boyfriend STAT.
FUCK Boston University for postponing my destiny.

alone in boston next semester...:\

2007-09-26T16:43:52Z

i thought i was going to London in the spring but i guess my life has other plans
idk who's controlling it, certainly not me
i don't know what i'm going to do here
hopefully just get good enough grades to still be eligible to go there in the Fall
and not die from alone-ness
and from seeing pics online of all my friends in London.. :,(

at least i'll be there to see the Christmas lights, i guess

and my 21st birthday will again have significance.
not that i want it to.

naaaaaaaaaakid

2007-09-07T04:53:40Z

LOS ANGELES,Calif., Sept. 6th--Due to the recent scandal of "High School Musical" star Vanessa Hudgens' naked photo scandal, Execs at Disney have parted ways with the star and have decided to replace her with "Cheetah Girls" star Adrienne Bailon. The decision came just hours after the scandal became public and got to the offices at Disney. Says insiders "It was an extremely hard decision to do. Vanessa has become apart of the family, but we felt it was irresponsible of her to do what she did." It has now been announced that Bailon, star of another hugely successful Disney franchise "The Cheetah Girls" will replace Hudgens in the role of Gabriella, Zac Efron's love interest in the upcoming "High School Musical 3". Both Hudgens and Bailon's reps denied a comment, as well as the reps for Disney.

WTF!!...

they should cast ME as Gabriella... so i can be w my bb daddy Zac<333
yes i reallly do think so.

you turn me on, i'm a radio.

2007-08-18T04:05:23Z

so i got my hair

i know you're all SO relieved!
sorry for complaining about it.
i'm in some kind of rut for real thooo

she falls apart in the avalanche

2007-08-16T04:52:11Z

FUUUCK

i was in a really bad state today and i decided that cutting off my hair would help solve things.
my hairdresser and i apparently had some miscommunication as to what i wanted
and now i not only FEEL like shit, but i L00K like it too!
hopefully getting my hair "fixed" as much as possible on Newbury on Fri or Sat
it was supposed to be asymmetrical, but it looks like 1 side was just chopped off w gardening shears
i dont want to look like a scenester but it may be in the cards

i need to hide out for like a year.

oh and my BU internet /cafeteria crush seems to have a girlfriend
a very un-cute one, at that
and now that my hair is so whack... omg what does all of this mean
a celibate autumn fallowing my celibate summer

life is weird

LISTEN to "River" by Joni Mitchell
i dont care that its not Christmas, listen to it anyway
you wont be disappointed.

"i wish i had a river i could skate away on
i wish i had a river sooo long, i could teach my feet to flyyyyy."

thats how i feel.

i wanna sex U up

2007-08-08T01:40:18Z

...the ladies' choiceee

all i wanna do is get up is get up is get up in the morning in the morning and not wanna dieeee

2007-07-14T03:00:09Z

Life has been crazy-dull lately

Back-and-forth for work,
spending money on clothes instead of food.

No boys to think about,
friends are usually gone

I spend all my time at home on the internet archive listening to old Ryan Adams live recordings,
and all my time in Cambridge wishing i were someplace else.

I have $43.46 in my bank account
and i'm already planning my outfits for fall

I feel like a real winner

fawn_baby @ 2007-06-27T20:23:00

2007-06-28T00:25:17Z

so BELIZE was amazing

haha we'll talk more later
can we hang out?? PLEASE? xo

where for art thou romeo

2007-05-30T14:02:05Z

its really sad not liking any boys.
i want to dress up for someone!
i want to be nervous that he wont call me and then ecstatic when he does!
i want to think about someone so much that i automatically dream of him and then cannot distinguish these dreams from reality and get very confused!

but no. no one for me anyplace...

fawn_baby @ 2007-05-29T09:50:00

2007-05-29T13:55:19Z

i NEED
to leave this town and get back to the city i love
to have more music in my life and KISSES
i NEED
less assholes and townies and baseball caps @work
more LOVE and less of all that other shit

man, i'm deeper than the parts of the ocean where giant squid and sperm whales battle it out

oh and btw:

FRIDAY JUNE 29th 2007 7:30P SOMERVILLE THEATRE $35
RYAN ADAMS
so not everything is bad i guess

I thought you'd ask me not to leave

2007-05-09T00:20:25Z

Today I had a nice day by myself mostly.

It was so beautiful out
I walked to the record store and bought the "new" Elliott Smith... stepping back in time...
Then I walked to the Public Garden and sat against a willow tree,
reading my book and watching the ducks and little kids
and as I was sitting there, I realized life is not always terrible.
I mean, sure, boys use&discard me as quickly as Bud Light cans
but things just seem better when there are ducks around, I guess.

Anyway, I'll be doing the same thing tomorrow
and I hope to enjoy it as much.
I wish I were living in Boston for the summer
and operating the Swan Boats

fawn_baby @ 2007-04-27T21:56:00

2007-04-28T02:02:02Z

You know, it's kind of sad. because I'm pretty sure I could have made some guy really happy.
But now I am taking myself "off the market" completely, so no one will ever know for sure.

Goodbye, dating world

SIGNED, NORA LEIGH CROTTY

fawn_baby @ 2007-04-24T18:56:00

2007-04-24T22:57:49Z

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the way doors can open and people just walk in

2007-04-02T18:53:02Z

TO SUM THINGS UP

This past week was so full of UPS and DOWNS, it's hard for me to believe. I had an awesome time in DC at American, but came back here Monday morning feeling SO confused about my life/where i should be/what i should be doing AND very stressed about my paper which was due Wednesday. Tuesday evening I found out that my paper was pushed back to Friday!! Then I found out that I was being fined $3,000 by the RIAA for downloading songs. Everything went downhill from there for the rest of the week, I was really depressed about the money and our futon broke :( yadayada. I finished my paper Friday morning with approx 15 minutes to spare. I think its a really good one, but I'll probably get another D on it regardless. Friday night I decided I would have a very good time to end the WEEK FROM HELL, but instead I drank too much wine in too short a time, felt unwell, and ended up at home before midnight.

Joel called me Saturday morning and told me he was coming to Boston (from DC! ik WHAT) w/ 2 of his friends by bus, which I did not exactly believe because it just sounded too ridiculous and also I never really believe boys when they say theyll do something till theyre actually doing it. Somehow they actually made it here alive sometime in the evening and we went to Jacobs and walked around Boston and learned cigarette magic tricks and stayed up late and washed feet and kissssed and rode the T and held hands and went to Harvard and the Common and were disrespected at the Pru and other things. We didnt really so anything but I guess we did a lot, and then they left and things were normal again except that now we are sans futon and there are a lot of dirty dishes. I had a really great time and wish I lived closer to DC, even New York. But I don't.
Maybe I'll edit this later but I have class. And I'm late

PLEASE LET THIS HAPPEN AGAIN (minus the whole $3,000 part)

please give me shallow advice

2007-03-29T21:16:56Z

i am SO tempted to cut off all my hair again and do this:

but i have been growing out my hair for 2+ years!!! idk what to dooooo friends, plz give advice
ahhh

List of Things I Want Right Now

2007-03-29T04:23:07Z

to have $6,000 magically appear so that i can pay off the RIAA and not feel really really bad for my parents, who unknowingly raised a criminal daughter and, as a result, are now in a very lot of debt.
to be skinnier
to be done with my Huck Finn morality paper that i still havent started (and is due Friday)
to get my tattoo and have it look good
to make-out
to get my hair done
to have my hair be somehow simultaneously exactly like Victoria B's and past my boobs
to have the money to fly to DC every other weekend
to pet my dog
to go to sleep and stay asleep past 7am (my current alarm setting)
to have someone else clean the gerbil cage
to re-do all of highschool
to go to jr. prom again
to have some wine
to have clearer skin
to stop being so critical and mean
to be sure i am going to London
to have $6,000 magically appear so that i can pay off the RIAA and not feel really really bad for my parents, who unknowingly raised a criminal daughter and, as a result, are now in a very lot of debt .

A girl from the BU newspaper interviewed me today about my $6,000 fine from the RIAA. At the end of it, i said,
"Basically, my life is over. You can quote me on that."
I said this partly because i'm a very dramatic person, but mostly because it's true.
Everything that was good is badbadbad.

fawn_baby @ 2007-03-27T07:47:00

2007-03-27T12:00:15Z

i went to AU for the weekend and it was weird
i missed the simplicity, but not the drama
i missed the dorm life but not shared bathrooms

a cute boy kissed me and said i was beautiful
and it made me feel better,
and now i guess we're getting married,
and our future sounds pretty sick haha:
shag carpets, anna karina, and purple rain

i have a paper due tomorrow (of course havent started, typical)
and need to film a project this afternoon, +++classes :(
but im going to try and not get stressed!! go with the flow!

i just wish my daffodils didnt die so fast :(
my ROOMS liked them too.

[photo cred : elise "you remind me of my jeep" smith]

au revoirrr

obladi, oblada

2007-03-03T20:17:01Z

TODAY is such a beautiful day
i wish all days were like this one from now on.
i woke up and ate brie & crackers with my brother
then put on my favorite dress and walked to URBN.
i bought a bright yellow pocketbook with a bow on the front to match my mood
i opened my windows wide and took out the garbage and just felt nice about life
i realize i sound like a tool but honestly, i just wish i were as happy about nothing as i am today, EVERYday!

in a minute, i will walk to Jacob's and then we will go to the Pet Shop at the Harvard Sq T stop on the Boston College Green Line and talk to the parrots that cost $20,000.
and i feel very happy about this. i dont know why.
i probably wont feel this happy again until... well i'm not sure. until the weather is nice again, which i feel will be in far too long.
Days like today make me miss DC - where, in approx 2 weeks, people there could very well be tanning on the quad while im inside with the heat full blast, watching Next reruns on the couch sort of crying a little bit because boys dont like me enough.

i cant believe how affected i am by the weather. im like a frog or a bear or something. or a dragonflyyyy
XO for TODAY!